Days Go Bye

My Debut :P

2008-01-30T02:55:00.001-08:00

Well this is a video I directed along with 2 other guys.
Check it out and tell me what you think :P
Was using a hand-camera so video quality could have been better.

:P
Hope you enjoyed that!!

Local Acts :P

2008-01-30T02:36:00.000-08:00

Well, Haven't blogged for ages :P

Well I really had to come out from retirement to show you guys this new local act. Ok not quite new but yea.
Underground rock group RULE!!

OH. Ps. If you have a weak heart, don't watch this video!

Don't say I didn't warn you!

Dota Or Blogging?

2007-10-25T11:45:00.000-07:00

Well, I wanna ask which one of the 2 evils would you choose?

Lets start with blogging, most people I know blog about what they did the whole day, everything from what they ate right up to the moment the took a dump in the toilet. Plus. they blog about their sad story of how they bf forgot their aniversary. I guess its the feeling that what you feel, or think means something to someone? Don't LIE!! That's what all you bloggers feel!

Dota on the other hand, (you people just want to pawn those noobs in FTZ ? Especially Penny) gives youself satisfaction huh ?

At the moment I'm choosing Dota over blogging.

Randomness

2007-10-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

Finally a decent internet connection!

Anyways,

Check this out

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just when I wanted to do some blogging this had to happen

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I mean seriously this couldn't come at a better time? I was just beginning to warm up. HUMPH!
Well sorry guys seems like you have to wait another day.

Promise to update tomorrow

till then,

Take care.

Heroes Season 2 : Ben is back!

2007-09-30T12:48:00.001-07:00

WARNING: CONTAINS SPOILERS!

Finally Season 2 is here, The most anticipated series in america and the rest of the world is back! (not officially but who cares!)

Andy told me that they released the first episode and I was really really excited, I forced him to cancel all other d/ls just to quicken the d/l, but he said "doesn't make a difference la!" but he still did it anyway (see, such a good friend) we had to go to a friends gig on that day (THANK GOD! if not I would have been glued to his computer screen and watching each and every kb transfered!) so as soon as I left the room he continued all his other d/ls! >.<" without me noticing.

When we got back, all the d/ls were done, unfortunately I was too tired so I went straight to bed. (Show's how much I wanted to watch it huh?) But I was really really tired! slept right up to the minute everyone was ready to leave, so we were a little late for my friends gig.

Anyways, the first episode did live up to much of the hype and expectations. Although I was hoping to see more of Nicky but its ok. We'll probably be seeing more of her in later episodes. It was really cool to see Peter right at the end, him losing his memories makes much to fantasize about, can't wait to see what they have installed for his character, OH and did you see his new power ? Lightning, cool eh? . Kenshi's story was much much cooler. I'd bet that Hiro will actually do all the fighting instead of the white samurai, They really really want to keep everything in english don't they?

OH, I noticed something else, Mohindran has once and for all left out his Indian accent which he was trying really really hard to do in Season 1, mainly the first few episodes. :P

I really think that Sylar's gonna be the good guy this time around? And the bad guy this time around is going to be some other dude with some weird super power which they won't reveal till episode 14++

Its either that or... Peter's gonna be the bad guy this time around!! Which would be a pretty cool twist. But than again, everyone likes Peter don't think the producers want a possible backlash from turning Peter in to the baddie

And guess who's back?

I'm back!

RE: Hangat Hangat Tahi Ayam ; its not that, I was waiting to start blogging again when Heroes came back, as Hiro said 'the hero will always appear at the last moment'

p.s: I'm coming back to KL on tuesday

Guess who's back,

I'm Back!

p.s: Before you comment on someone else, look at yourself. You're worst.

Game of Life

2007-09-15T13:02:00.000-07:00

Everyone has their own definition of life, for instance, the definition of living for the Chinese is to 'LIVE to eat!' some people see making money as a priority in life, and maybe for others is to accomplish a certain set goals. Many people believe that if you work hard and long enough you'll will succeed, but I think that they are dead wrong.

Every game there are winner and there are losers. The Game of Life is the same, every winner has to have a loser

For me, I see life as a game we play till we die. The rules are simple, everything you do has a consequence. That's the engine of the game, choices. Everything we do in life has its consequence, whether bad or good, it depends on the action made. The only drawback of the game, there is no REPLAY! what has been done is done, nothing you do, say or think can change that. (you can't have everything your way, not everything can be forgotten, and nothing can be taken back, once you do it your stuck with it for life)

And always remember, you cannot have everything in life! you need to give some stuff up to gain something else.

Here's a no brainer, whether you like it or not, your in it. That's the difference. Some people realize this and play the game, these people enjoy the gains and benefits of playing it right, some people just refuse to play and get left behind, other just don't have a clue whats happening and they slowly just fade away.

The only tip you need to know is that, always look out for number 1. (that's yourself if you didn't already know. Something my dad always thought me) That's the most important person in your life. No matter how close you are, no matter how important that person is to you, you always need to look out for yourself first. No good has ever come out of caring for a person more than yourself, true-out history people who care about others more than themselves have not had a good ending. Look at Samson, because he trusted Delilah he got screwed, same goes for Romeo and Juliet, (although they are just fictional) neither got what they wanted, both ended up dying. Last but not the least, my favorite example: Parents, no matter what you do, their still there for you, and yet in the very end, you dump them at some care center for the elderly to wait for their time to pass, hmmm, not what you might have expected to get in return for all the sacrifices you made huh? (you might say that i'm being negative, but isn't that a fact?)

I'm not saying that you should stop caring! all I'm saying is that the faster you realize that life is a game you need to play; you'll be alright. Now you just need to play it smart, get the wanted dice rolls and land on the right squares.

Mia Rose Vs Esmee Denters

2007-09-11T09:02:00.000-07:00

Well, Aya asked me to check out Mia Rose and so I did, I take comments from people seriously so if you have seen any other talent out that and you think she's good I'll take a look at it. (Like professional like that :P) Anyways, this is a short profile of Mia Rose:

Maria Antonia Sampaio Rosa, born on the 26th of January 1988 in Wimbledon Village, London. If you want more details you can check her website out at Mia Rose

This is one of her best uploaded songs yet is the cover version of Nelly Furtado's 'say it right'

She sings this song pretty well, compared to some of her other songs, but i some how thing she has a very common sound and nothing spectacular (but she does have the whole package to become a top class star (look at Britney!)

Well they both sang 1 similar song 'unwritten' by Natasha Bedingfield

That's Esmee cover, and this one is Mia's

There's a huge difference in singing styles, and I think Esmee does a much much better job compared to Mia. I personally feel that Esmee has a better vocal range and she is better with her pitching compared to Mia.

Although, If you asked me who would make a bigger hit? I really can't say, being a talented singer is not the only thing you need to be a hit.(Once again a Britney comparison, Christina is a much better singer but yet Britney is still more popular, or was more popular) But I have to say, Aya is right, Mia does have some pretty cool moves, Mia definitely ups Esmee is the presentation area, althought that can be worked on, especially since she(Esmee) is under J.T's wing.

Up and coming star

2007-09-10T13:10:00.000-07:00

The next lady or should I say girl, that i'm going introduce to you is already quite famous in the USA similarly to Leah(Japan), but they're relatively unknown to us over here in Malaysia. However, we can be expecting to be seeing her hit Malaysian shores with a bang (its just only a matter of time)

Check this video out of her doing a cover version of J.T's 'what goes around comes around' (be sure to pay attention to the very last part)

Pretty cool stuff huh? Compared to Leah, her pitching is perfect and she's has a beautiful & soulful voice. Not only that, she's eye candy as well. And yes, if you haven't already guessed, she has been signed on to J.T's record label Tennman Records. So we can expect to be hearing from her very soon.

If you like to know more about her, you can check out her myspace at Esmee Denters. And by the way, she is only 19, September/28/1988. She even as her own blog (for you people who just love to read about people's lives and want they eat everyday, and how many times they took a dump that day, you'll enjoy yourself)

I got hooked to her when I saw this,

Although she was slightly pitchy in the first chorus, she was magnificent the rest of the song. What I liked about it is that it was sweeter and less confrontational than the original (might be totally wrong but that's what i think and I'd go for this version over beyonce's!)

A picture of Esmee Denters,

p.s: Dj Def said "she's gonna be a big hit, give her 1 year! When she comes out with her record I'll definately play it"

Love at First sight...Leah

2007-09-09T09:47:00.000-07:00

This is what happened, I was online yesterday and flipping throught the newspaper looking for something interesting to blog about,(woot, men can multitask!) the only thing I could find was a write up about how long it took sperm to fully mature before its ready to go out into action. Speaking of sperm, I heard this joke; Sperm B asks Sperm A, " why are you working out so hard?" Sperm A replies "because I wanna be the first one who reaches!" After a months of working out, the day arrived. Everyone ques up at the starting point, then when it was time to come, all the sperms swam with everything they had. Sperm A was right in the front and gaining speed, soon he was able to lose the pack. Sperm B says "there goes our chance!" Suddenly Sperm C says "LOOK! He's coming back" At first they could only see him, then they heard "GO BACK! ITS A BLOW JOB!"

Anyway, back to the main point, Su-I asked me to check this singer out, Leah Dizon. As usual, I went to google it, the only thing I could find was Leah Dizon the model, so I wasn't to sure whether it was the same person, but no harm in clicking right? so I clicked away... this is what I got!!

Hmm.. at first I thought I got the wrong Leah Dizon, then I decided to check for other websites, (Didn't find any naked pictures and I WASN'T LOOKING for them) than I asked Su- I whether she was a model, she said "ya, try Youtube" so I did, I found her song 'Softly" and Everything, Anything" Huuuhuu, not bad, alot of eye candy, (she's pretty good to look at :P) She's not the most fantastic singer around but, neither are the PCD so..

Than I told Matt to check her out as well, this is what he said.
mOjo says:
lol..
mOjo says:
she quite hot

So then I told him I was planning to blog about her, this is what happened

Dj Benn - says:
gonna blog about her
Dj Benn - says:
her*
Dj Benn - says:
lolx
Dj Benn - says:
doing research now
Dj Benn - says:
LOLX
mOjo says:
wttfff..

Anyway so I did a little research on her. This is what I found out.

Leah Dizon (リア・ディゾン, Ria Dizon , born as Leah Donna Dizon on September 24, 1986) is a model, singer, and a TV personality in Japan, born in Las Vegas, Nevada, US. She has two older brothers, an older sister, and two younger brothers. Her astrological sign is Libra, and her Chinese zodiac sign is Tiger. She mix if you didn't know, Japanese, Chinese, Filipino and French
(compliments or wiki!)

Oh, and just so you know, she's releasing her debut album "Destiny Line" on the 12th of September. (Its going to be a rare occasion where I'd actually buy an original cd!)

This is her song 'Softly' and 'Everything, Anything' (don't be to harsh on judging her singing skills, she's better then you! so don't say anything!) Just shud up and enjoy the catchy beats and the EYE CANDY!!

Man attracted more to looks

2007-09-06T19:27:00.000-07:00

I was reading the newspaper yesterday morning, when I came across this cool article entitled "Men attracted more to looks" struck me. I was thinking to myself, this was defamation of men! We are not shallow, I should sue the newspaper for such comments! NOT!!!(I wish! everyone knows that men are attracted to looks, those who say they look for the inner beauty, THEY LIE! well i'm referring to, if they find the women's appearence unattractive because beauty is subjective but is still able to say they love them)

In summary, the articel was about a study done on a group of 25 men and 20 women. The participants took part in 'speed dating' short meeting of between 3-7 minutes. Afterwards, the partipants would select the people they would like to date again. In this study, the participants where asked to complete a questionaire on "what they look for in a mate", listing categories such as wealth and status, family commitment, physical appearance, health and attractiveness (This exercise was done before the 'speed dating' occured). After the 'speed dating' session, researchers compared the questionaires to the participants actually chose. Researchers found that Men's choices did not reflect their stated preferences but the choices appeared to be based on the women's physical attractiveness. Suprisingly, the women's choices, like the men, did not reflect their stated preferences but they made more discriminating choices, their choices reflected on attractiveness, they chose the men who they felt were on a par with their own self-rated attractiveness. One researcher said " part of the womens' goal was to choose men who would stay with them"

See, told you they lie! but can women blame us? I mean honestly, would you blame a guy for picking candidate A over candidate B?

Candidate A

Candidate B

See, I told you! how can you blame me for picking candidate A? I don't think any guy out there would pick candidate B over candidate A, so mission accomplished! It's not shallow to pick a girl because of her looks. Agreed? You need to be able to admire the person you love BUT, (i stress on the BUT!) personality plays a priviotal role in the relationship once the LUST is gone (I've nothing against that, all I'm saying that it's not shallow to love pretty women!)

To justify myself, lets have a senario. I have 2 beautiful girls, hmm..

This is the first

And this is No. 2

Tough choice right? (here's an inside of how the male mind works) I would firstly gauge the interest level of both girls towards me (assuming that they both like me! ) So since I'm this hot looking dude, they both like me equally so, move on to the second criteria, I'll pick the girl whom I can communicate better with, but most guys including me won't make a move yet, will probably play it cool and survey a little longer to be sure. For me and most of the other guys over look this part because of lust, BAD HABITS! Everyone has them. (Don't Lie! you know you have them) Some bad habits are almost non-existant or in other words wouldn't affect anyone such as twirling your hair, checking yourself in the mirror every time you get the chance, or pulling your skirt, but there are some bad habit that would drive you up the wall such as picking your nose in public, burping, leaving your underwear all over the place or something to that effect (you know what I mean)

The final criteria that i'll look into is lifestyle, I would pick the one that suits my lifestyle or the lifestyle I can tolerate, vice-versa. Some people would say I'm too picky, but trust me, (I love clubbing) if your girl doesn't like you doing that, you'll definately not be having a fun time.

So you see men aren't shallow (or how I see men la!) if you ask us to choose between Jessica Alba (especially in 'Into The Blue') or Ugly Betty, your kind of insane to call us shallow, (I bet some girls would be dying to pick Jessica Alba as well) We do look at a women's appearance as well as their personality. You might be Gorgeous but if you have a sucky personality, will still pass you on for a lesser being :P (but if Jessica Alba was bitchy I really don't know if I could pass her on :P)

7 Wonders of the World? or 7 most voted Wonders

2007-09-04T01:30:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered why its called the 7 Wonders of the world? And not another number? Don't worry, I've don't have the slightest idea why either. But that's not the main point, but this is, if I were to ask you to name me the 7 Wonders of the World I would believe that 9/10 of you would get it wrong, I don't blame you for it, Its' changed already.

This was the old list:

Now its called The 7 Wonders of the Ancient World

1. The Great Pyramid of Giza
2. The Hanging Gardens of Babylon
3. The Temple of Artemis at Ephesus
4. The Statue of Zeus at Olympia
5. The Mausoleum at Halicarnassus
6. The Colossus of Rhodes
7. The Pharos of Alexandria

Then came the more recent one which they called

The 7 Wonders of The Medivial World:
1.Stonehenge
2.The Colosseum
3.The Catacombs of Kom el Shoqafa
4.The Great Wall of China
5.The Porcelain Tower of Nanjing
6.The Hagia Sophia
7.The Leaning Tower of Pisa

Oh... than came this

7 Wonders of the Modern World

1.The Empire State Building
2.The Itaipú Dam
3.The CN Tower
4.The Panama Canal
5.The Channel Tunnel
6.The North Sea Protection Works
7.The Golden Gate Bridge

I was thinking.. I remember our Twin Towers were at one point one of the 7 wonders! What happened? So I search the internet to see what happened, cause if I remembered correctly 9/11 was the WTC not the twin towers so why was it taken off!

This is what they're calling it now

The 7 Forgotten Wonders of the World
1.The Clock Tower (Big Ben)
2.Eiffel Tower
3.The Gateway Arch
4.The Aswan High Dam
5.Hoover Dam
6.Mount Rushmore National Memorial
7.The Petronas Towers

I was pretty annoyed to find this out, I mean how do they judge if it should remain or be taken off right? I mean have you seen the Twin Towers at night with its lights?

Guess what I found out,

THE NEW 7 WONDERS OF THE WORLD

Guess how these "so-called" wonders are chosen! They are voted for then from that they get the name "Wonder of the World". I find it's really unfair. Look, first of all it was not really announced globally that there was going to be a voting session, It was announced in an official ceremony in Lisbon, Portugal on the 7th of July 2007, 07/07/07 (although the date was cool but the voting wasn't!)because not everyone voted! Secondly, even if Petronas Twin Tower was (still is) a magnificant building to behold, how is 22 million votes gonna go up against 1billion people voting for the Great Wall? or even the Taj Mahal?(in the event that everyone could vote)

The question remains, is the "so-called" 7 Wonders really Wonders or just another popularity contest like Miss World or American Idol? I think it really lowers the standard of the title. I feel a set of criterias should be set and it should be something than would last throughout time or maybe the next century(I mean the criterias) as there is constant advancement. A panel of experts with creditials to choose the 7 wonders(from time to time? say every 50 years or so?) Because changing the 7 wonders as time goes by so easily really doesn't seem that wonderful anymore.

The only consolation left is that these 7 buildings are still subjected to a final validation process, and will be confirmed during a forthcoming New7Wonders Inauguration Tour. So there is still hope, I think!

Too Much Masturbation Does Effect Daily Life

2007-09-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

Check this out

If you can't read it, click here taken from photobucket

I've heard of theories where they say that too much masturbation can effect your daily life and your social life but i've never heard of masturbation causing a physical hindrance to other peoples lives. Until now, that is.

Imagine, your in the shower, and you notice a puddle beginning to form. Its forming because the drainage is clogged with hair. At first it doesn't bother you as there is only a small puddle, but soon you notice its rising, and its rising fast. It begins to gross you out as you just took a dump and washed your ass, (but thats not too bad, you think to yourself, its mine, so it can't be that bad) but you quicken your pace and begin to wash the soap away, (you just put soap on yourself to need to wash it off, tak kan you just wipe it off with a towel right) now the water is heel level. Now it really grosses you out. Than all of a sudden, you spot this whiteish substance floating on the surface. (Don't continue reading if your below 15 years of age) You take a closer look, you begin to wonder, out of curiosity you touch the substance, (you think to yourself, hmmm... sticky, could be glue) then you lift it higher to smell it, (you say to yourself, where have I smelt this before? This is definitely not glue) Suddenly it hits you! NOOOO! you've just touched sperm! worst of all ITS NOT YOURS!!

The End

I mean come on, if your using a public toilet/shared toilet DON'T have a hand party! Its not right, Its like polluting a sacred place! its the toilet man, you're most vunerable there! unless you bath with a swimsuit or something like that, but not everyone is an alien like you! We bath butt naked! so do your happy time somewhere else that is private and personal!

I was in NS (National Service) and I know what it's like living with other people, come to think of it, there were a few times the shower would get clogged up, Eewwh!

But is it even possible for sperm to harden and cause the clogging? I find it really absurd. If it was condoms, then maybe. Not sperm! If it could i pity women...

OH.. and speaking of masturbation...Although this is against animal rights but I thought that it was suitable for this post.

Animal Cruelty, The name of the offender is not mention due to his age and maturity

Too much masturbation is bad for your friends!

p.s: I maybe wrong about that

Roti Bakar and Blogging

2007-09-03T23:15:00.000-07:00

My blog has been revamped by the woman below. Pls click on her face to check her blog out.

DJ Benn (left) and Roti Bakar (right)

She forced me to advertise for her in exchange for the new templates( she said I had 2 choices, either this or pay her money, when she said that she was holding a kitchen knife! Like Ah Long like that!). Although I don't see why she need the adverstistments, she has triple my traffic and I think most of the people that read my blog started with reading hers !?#$%^

Thanks alot

ps: what kind of name is toastbwead? :P

Coming of Age; Merdeka

2007-09-03T05:25:00.000-07:00

Malaysia has finally reached 50 years of independence.

Taken from Virtual Malaysia.com

I sat infront of my laptop for another 20 mins just thinking what else to write. I usually don't have a problem writing, but somehow, whatever comes to mind doesn't seem apropriate (doesn't justify the 50 years of hardwork other Malaysian's have done to hold this country together)

I guess I never knew the hardships that the people endured during British Colonization and the Japanease Occupation. And because of that I've taken for granted what Merdeka means. For me, Its just another reason to party and celebrate.

Compare the celebrations then and now

This was then,

And now

Picture taken from: Rezzaalias

Not so funky then huh, but i guess it comes with advancement, the more advance the country is the more advance and hightech the party is :P

Not forgetting Paul Van Dyke and the Merdeka Rave, this year's Merdeka celebrations had something for everyone. The clubbers had Pure Bar, the family oriented people had their parade and fireworks, and the hardcore ravers had Paul Van Dyke.

Dj Ben and Dj Def in Pure Bar 2007 (Merdeka Eve Celebrations)

Happy Merdeka.

So they say 'Love Knows No Boundaries' but sometimes they lie!

2007-08-27T00:06:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been doing some thinking, I've never been cheated on,(either that or I still don't know that I have)so which would be a better situation? 1. Your girlfriend cheated on you and you don't know anything. 2. Your girlfriend cheated on you and you found out from someone. 3. Your girlfriend cheated and she told you. Do you think picking a number describes who you are? I think it does.

Well I'm kinda stuck now, don't know which one to pick! I really really want to pick number 1 but I'm really grossed out with the thought of sharing my GF with someone else.... the thought of her going to bed with someone else... hmmm *yuckx!* So I think I want to know. But, if I didn't know that it wouldn't be gross. Actually no, it'd be gross just without me knowing... hmmm

I'll definitely not take the second one, cause that would be a super big blow to my ego, I'm not saying that the other choices wouldn't but, number 2 would be the biggest ego-killer. Not only is it an ego-killer, this choice would most definitely be the end of the relationship. Imagine this situation, ' You find out your girlfriend is cheating on you, you go home and ask her this, have you been cheating on me? she says, " NO" you can kiss your relationship BYE BYE (now the tougher question is, which one is more devastating? the cheating or the lying? I think the lying)

Now for the most painful choice, door number 3. Let's see, "Baby, I'm really sorry, I've something to tell you, I cheated on you." hmmm.... doesn't sound right, how can it sound right? Its not! But anyways, would you forgive her? I guess its a question of how much you think the relationship means to you. (Well I have this theory, if your partner tell you that he/she cheated, its most likely he/she wants the relationship to work so they tell you OR, they think that their about to get caught and they tell you so that you don't get that mad) I somehow I think if they cheated on you, they'd cheat again. You think so? BUT I guess I want to know, that from there I'll decide what to do next

Hmmm.... the more I write the more I begin to wonder why would people cheat in the first place? (I define cheating as, sleeping with someone else. Flirting and kissing doesn't count) If you love someone, would you cheat on him/her? I don't think so. I guess If someone cheats on you, he/she doesn't love you enough. The reason I define flirting and kissing as not cheating is because to flirt or to kiss someone (but it depends on your age, if your in high school maybe its different but I'm talking about college and working life) its very easy, but when you sleep with some one, it take alot of premeditation (with or without the influence of alcohol, although some people react differently, I believe you are still in control of your actions except your sense or right and wrong are affected but you are still responsible for what you do) SO yes, I believe that If you can cheat on your partner you don't deserve to be forgiven. No matter what the excuse is.

Picture taken from: The Heart of a Musician

p.s: I know they say 'love knows no boundaries' but that doesn't mean you can go around sleeping with other people. Not all sayings are true! :P

Re: Tears

2007-08-25T20:59:00.001-07:00

I'm sure everyone has gone through patches of tough times. Or at least everyone who has reached a certain age has. I guess these trying times define the person you are? These are the times when you learn who your real friends are, you learn how tough you are, and most importantly you learn about yourself.

1 of lifes greatest mysteries is not the tombs of Tutankhamun or whether Hang Tuah is Chinese (which he is) but its the very fact that we are the closest person to ourselves but yet we somehow just fail to see who we really are (I'm not talking about everyone, just most of you, so that no one gets offended, myself included) we fail to see how our actions affects the people around us. Or is it that we just don't care? For me I know my flaws, I do know I 'swear' alot, but its not that I don't realise it, I just don't care. I've accidentally offended people by being vulgar and all, but I've never crossed the line by embarrasing someone by bringing up past events to bash a person up, which I think is below the belt. But I guess its just one of the ways I seperate friends from aquintances. So what is your greatest flaw? (YOU KNOW IT, its just that you pretend not to, cause the truth hurts)

I know I'm suppose to be helping you solve the problem, but I can't if you don't want to, so I'll let you in on a little secret, I've mastered the art of making myself feel better everytime i'm down. Although its not very health but it sure as hell makes me feel better... I think about all the other ppl who are not doing so well in life and compare their state to mine. Life doesn't seem so bad after all. (I don't mean the kids in Congo or some African country cause if I did, my life would be amazing compared to theirs and I'll feel ashamed for even getting depressed about the state of my life, don't you feel ashamed now just by complaining? especially this girl I know who cried 10 days 10 nights just because she got 1A 3 Bs, SHEESH!!)

Photo taken from: www.treklens.com/.../Asia/India/photo38494.htm

About backstabbers? well you pretty much can't do anything much about it, just stay away from them, no point hanging around them (unless your a better backstabber than by all means stab away) You really won't know who your friends really are until you choose to actually look. For instance, I used to have 2 really close friends, 1 was the nicest person ever, well manered, would always be looking out to give me advise and he was fun to hang out with. The other dude was, well at first glance is/was cocky bastard, (not joking he'll walk as if he's nose would drop down if he look at the floor!) and I don't blame ppl for blogging about him, his first impression kinda sucks unless your a freshie who he likes (enough hints on who he is? LOL) anyways, can you guess who ended up being the lying S.O.B?, the first one, so looks can be deceiving, I stayed away from the first dude, even now. (could write a whole blog about the stuff he did but, that's the past! BUT, who knows? if i'm nice enough i'll tell you guys :P)

Everyone has to go through this phase in life to grow as a person. There's this saying "you need to taste bitterness to know the sweetness of life"

p.s:crying alone isn't gonna solve anything, you gotta look for your friends and ask for help, and I'm very sure that they'll be there for you.

ILLEGAL ACTIVITY: INFRINGMENT OF COPYRIGHT ACT!

2007-08-20T05:24:00.001-07:00

Don't DOWNLOAD this free Harry Potter book online!

but this is the download link so you ppl know not to DOWNLOAD :P

click here for the website.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

Warning. some pages are blurry, but if your cheap don't complain.
(some dude took pictures of all the pages/complied it and posted it online)

Again, I'm telling you not to download, as it is a copyright infringment, its ths same as buying pirated VCD,CDs,DVDs

p.s Have fun you cheapskate bastards :P

oh and the password for the zip file is internet

Do you know who your friends really are?

2007-08-18T01:22:00.000-07:00

FRIENDS!! Seriously what is the meaning of friends? No, i'm not talking about the American sitcom about a group of six friends living in the borough of New York City. Well according to Wikipedia; (so feels like I'm doing a presentation!) an interpersonal relationship between humans. That doesn't really give a full picture of what friends are all about. The main question today is that do you know who your friends really are? Cause I know some people who really can't tell the difference from a acquaintance and a friend. And the difference between a FRIEND and a friend. Have I confused you yet? well the FRIEND I'm talking about is the person who'll stick up for you, take the blame for you or someone who you can tell straight to his/her face that they are one big ASSHOLE when they deserve it. Then the other type of friend would be someone I'd hang out with, but probably not tell them that I slept with their sister or call them at 3 am just to hang out. And finally for acquaintances, well their basically just people I know, I probably need to know them better but well... takes to much effort! (This is a really sensitive topic, so if you are mentally unstable or suffering from small gas syndrome, i suggest that you don't read!! BUT! I don't think that will stop you anyway so ....)

If you were thinking why I suddenly felt like talking about friends, well someone asked me if I'd side them if something happened. I thought to myself "Do you think that were that close?" Well I just wanna clear stuff out ... and another friend ask me "How close are you to ...." There are only a few people I'd stand up for and Matt (picture below) is one of them

THIS IS MY BEST FRIEND!! ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BRO! LOVE YOU!

I'm very honest about some stuff, and this is one of them, If your not in the picture its either I don't have a picture of you (just show how much of a friend you are huh!) or you really weren't my friend to begin with. But I guess you really need to know that I pick sides. Unless its between close friends that I just don't get involve unless it comes to a point where your problem start affecting our friendship.

Well this are my FRIENDS!!!!
I linked the photos cause it'd be to messy to post all of em....

My Friends
Photo 2 of friends
Last picture of my friends (Hope your in this one!)

You see if you got angry/upset/disappointed that you weren't in the pictures ... they won't get angry even if I told them how bad their B.O is , neither would they get angry with me if I showed up late for dinner... or neither would they get angry if i accidentally broke a promise... But you definately would!

ANYWAYS, since I'm almost done I tot i'd just like to wish Matt Happy Birthday again... Although I didn't get to celebrate your party with you... you know I LOVE YOU!!

ps:DON'T do birthday post! I think their lame... :P

P.S: This is for you, You know who you are

2007-08-13T10:14:00.000-07:00

If someone asked me how would I describe life, I'd say "Its amazing, beautiful, and horrifying at the same time"

There are some things in my life that I do regret doing, and there are a lot of things that I'm proud of but most of the good things I do I forget. However, its hard to forget the mistakes I've made, and it has caught up with me. (Was pretty much correcting myself for typing it in 3rd person when it should be in first person but I guess its easier to type in 3rd person as in makes it feel less of my fault) This is the times when I need someone to tell me that I'm worth it, and I'm good enough.

Its easy to blame people for everything that goes wrong in my life, I could blame my parents for having too much hope in me, or my friends for not being there when I needed them, or my brother for not living up to expectations or just a random stranger for not saying hello. I could blame the whole world for my failures, but I won't, because that's not me anymore.

I am Benjamin Low, I am a dependable person who will be there for my friends when they need me. I love life, although there are days when I fall so deep but what brings me back is that there are a lot of amazing people in my life. My parents who will always be there for me no matter what, my friends who will always cheer me up, and my brother who always has my back.

These are the most important thing in life, the people who care about you, the people who will not leave you. But you need to let them in.

p.s : I've shared my feelings, everyone knows how I feel, its your turn to share.

Filler!!!

2007-08-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

Been sick the past few days so pretty much been in bed... plus not really in the mood to think about blogging... But i'm at work now... pretty much wating for my turn to spin so I tot I might as well write something...

Exam results comming out tomorrow so ... hmmm not the slightest bit stressed out but i guess that I'm hoping I don't screw up :P

Anyways, Last week Eu Ling and Huey Juen came to cam whore at the console so these are the picstures!!

Check out my DIGIMON cap :P The guys told me they were all gonna wear a cap, I was like crap i don't have a cap... so i went to dig through my closet, the only cap I found was this one (but what the heck, damn cool cap ok!)

Oh btw, special thank to this beautiful lady for helping me set my blog, she pretty much does all the technical stuff of my blog (html and other stuff, EVEN the CBOX)

OK the hair abit cacated but whatever! Cut my hair already!

Sky Bar

2007-08-02T23:06:00.000-07:00

This is the whole story of how I ended up in SKY BAR,

I accidentally left my laptop charger with Van (she's in KL) so I had to go back up to KL to get it(that was Wednesday night) so I heard from Camie that's she's going up to KL to meet up with her friends and she was following Juan (or famously known as Mr. K :P) so I called him and he said ok I could follow him since he was going up to meet his elder brother.

Spent the whole day in Midvalley, and YES everything is on sale, TOPSHOP, La Senza, FCUK, Miss Selfridge and everyother major brand was on sale. Up to 70%

Later that night we went back to Jim's hotel (Mr. K's bro) which was Traders.. One hot room, too bad I didn't take pictures. Didn't think of blogging till we went to SKY BAR!

anyways, Here's to all those who say I don't have pictures in my blog!

Beautiful view of the Twin Towers. You guys jealous yet?

The whole group. I'm second from the left. Just so you know that the hottest guy in the pic is me :P

From Left : Me, Mr K and Camie

p.s : Sorry Aya, Juan was suppose to call you but I called him first so I took your place. But I needed to get my charger badly :P next time I bring you ok?

Dirty Little Secret

2007-08-02T22:14:00.000-07:00

Every since I was a kid, my parents had big expectations of me. My mom always wanted me and my brother to be either a Doctor, Lawyer or an Accountant. But me and mom never see eye to eye, at age 4 I wanted to be Micheal Jackson (and i don't mean white, or was it black? don't remember, but I wanted to be a singer) At age 6 I told my mom I wanted to be a footballer, (I remember the setting, we were outside around 5-6 pm just as we're talking a rubbish-truck passed by) mom said "If you one something exciting don't be a footballer, why not become a rubbish collector? you get to smell very exotic and different smells everyday, your job won't be boring!" (hmmmmm.... some kind of role model huh?) than when I hit puberty, I tot the best job for me was to be a porn star! (best job in the world! I mean come on, this is what you call "getting paid to enjoy"!)

Everyone has expectations, but I guess talking about your expectations is something that is easily shared, talking about your fears might not. Some people fear death, some people fear being ridiculed, some people fear height, and some just fear bugs. Just like expectations, each and everyone has a different fear. But I guess your fears makes you vulnerable, so you keep them to yourself? Well it doesn't, it makes you stronger, knowing your fears is the first step to over-coming it.

I'm terrified of failure, all my close friends know this, I hate to lose, I'm a sore loser. I hate the feeling of dejection. I really don't get it when people tell me that "Its alright to lose, as long as you tried your best" I just don't. For me losing is not an option, (I'm not afraid of death, I mean, if/and when you die, that's it, what have to to regret, your dead already. Ok maybe I'd regret not telling my family and friends how much they mean to me but, they already know that so .... hmmmm..... not much to regret) does that make sense?

In the end, I just stop trying to hard, I came to conclude that if I don't give it my best and than I fail, that wouldn't be a failure since I didn't try. But if I tried my best and failed, that would me I failed! (Does that make sense?)

But I really just think that I'm trying to make myself feel better since my A Level results are coming out on the 9th and that I just submitted my Mix tape for the JUICE Dj Quest 2007 competition.

Now don't you think death is more merciful? LOL! I'm not suicidal if you were thinking that!

Dj Benn Low Electronica 'n' Dance Mix Tape

2007-08-01T03:34:00.000-07:00

Dj Benn Low Electronica 'n' Dance Mix Tape

To download -

*click here*

Track List

1.The Way I Are - Timberland ft Keri Hilson & D.O.E

2.Umbrealla - Rihanna (Seamus Haji & Paul Emanuel Remix)

3.This Is Not Miami - Sander Kleineberg

4.Put Your Hands Up For Detroit - Fedde Le Grand

5.La Discotek - D. Ramirez (Hed Kandi Remix)

6.My Love - Justin Timberlake (Paul Oakenfold Remix)

7.Destination Calabria - Alex Gaudino ft Crystal Water (Static S Remix)

8.Beep Beep - Krafft (Fred De F Remix)

9.Muzik Loud - Tocadisco

10.Let It Drop - Dj Delicious (Henrik B Remix)

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I've uploaded the song to imeem.... but for some reason or other can't share it... ish... noob! Hahaha... i'll update you guys when I have found out how to upload stuff properly. At the moment I'm getting Van to help me.... I'm a total noob at this ! :P Dun laugh... everyone was a noob before!

Am I Gay? Hell NO!

2007-07-30T10:25:00.000-07:00

I've been reading the Cbox/Tagbox/Chatbox, whatever you bloggers call it, and for the record I'm not a blogger! I'm ..... hmmm... I'm special :P

There were a few comments on Van not being able to stay single for more than a month. Talking about being single, I've been single for almost a year and a half! Sheesh! (that's bloody long for my standard) Shit, its depressing if I think of it.

This is the part I really don't understand (why I'm still single)... I mean yes I'm not actively looking for a partner but still, why don't someone come up to me and date me? Sheesh, whats wrong with women? I definately know there's nothing wrong with me! I'm good-looking, I've a car, and I FUCKING good in bed (ahemmm...) and yet I'm single... so it definately has to be the women!

Alot of my friends tell me that I have alot of hot girl friends, (En, dun perasan! I'm talking more about Naz and Saran.. Li Peng included but definately not you! Oh and Aya too!) I mean, I do attract beautiful women but not in the way that i'd like. I guess its my happy go lucky attitude(I think I'm just not bothered and I'm lazy) that builds my image of more of a guy friend type rather than the serious relationship kind of guy. Which in some ways maybe true.

However I think I do have certain qualities of a serious relationship kind of guy (since I'll be using that word quite often lets call it SRKoG) I'm loyal!(ok that was a lie, hey! No ones perfect!). Hmmm... but I've other important qualities like for instance I'm charming, dependable, and romantic (I seriously am! go ask any of my X(s), they'll tell you) So I don't see how I'm not SRKoG quality. I'm the type that goes shopping with his girl, plus all my girl friends (girlfriends friends not the girlfriend girlfriend) love to go shopping with me, and I love shopping, (some of them even say I'm worst than a girl) I'm picky about my clothes, I can just go on for hours just looking for the right T-Shirt design. Ok I don't buy as many as you girls out there (1 dress a week , SHEESH!) but I do my shopping regularly. As a SRKoG , I also love chit-chat, I can sit at a mamak stall for hours and talk non-stop! See I'm a good companion. Oh, I read Cosmopolitan (International edition, I think the local edition is crap, also read my mom's Women's Idea, mainly for gosip, followed the whole Brad-Jennifer break-up) so we have stuff to talk about! So how is that not SRKoG ?

Shit, come to think of it, that sound pretty gay! (I have nothing about gay people and I'm not making fun of gay homosexuals, I have a few close friends who are gay, and I go for gay nights so I'm pretty ok hanging out with gays, Shit, gay nights.... hmm.... somethings wrong here) I don't think I'm gay, I can't be, I definately not gay! I love women! That make me straight right?

p.s ; my exit will always remain my exit (hope that's true)

Urban Legend About Djs

2007-07-28T02:18:00.000-07:00

Well people often ask me what its like being a Dj, they normally start of by asking about I do and the other basic questions; is it fun? is it tiring? is it difficult? I always reply them the same thing, it depends. It really really depends. If your working at some crappy run down club then yes, its a drag, but hey, I'm working in Pure Bar, (www.purebar.com.my) the most happening club in Malacca! I mean come on, wherelse would you want to be? You've got your good looking Dj (me of course) and the many gorgeous women that come every week (you know who you girls are :P)

But then again, I play the same bloody songs day in and day out, (as Dj Def says "same shit only different smell") it can get abit boring sometimes you know. Especially when there's no crowd. Sometimes I feel like I should just play a bloody non-stop cd. So like I said just now it really depends.

I sometimes wonder how some people can Dj for 15 years? Hell some Djs are still playing well way into their 40's. Unbelievable! Sometime back when I had a stint in Klang, I met up with Dj Maverick (He's in the Malaysian Book of Records for spinning non-stop for 3 days) so I asked him, do you have any advise for me? This is what he said "Dj-ing is a hobby, not a job. Don't quit your studies for Dj-ing" Hmmm.... But he did tell me all his experiences and they're very interesting. He told me about how Djs used to have groupies (where's my groupie?) this group of hot girl that would follow him around, support him and cheer for him. He went on to tell me how girls would come up to him and give him their numbers, sometimes they were written on panties! (Shit! I want number written on panties!!)

COME ON! Was I born on a different planet? Girls nowadays dun even look my way! sheesh! I mean I'm not bad looking myself but I don't even get anything close to what he described. I mean if he (Mavrick ) was the only one saying stuff like that, I could doubt what he said but most of the senior Djs say similar stuff. The most I get is a glance, if I'm lucky a smile! Sheesh! What's wrong with the women nowadays! I'm not asking for sex but I mean it would be nice to know that someone wants to get in my pants, so yea!

I guess I haven't reach the standard where I get panties thrown at me (I'll tell you when girls start throwing panties at me) so I really need to work harder! At the moment I'll just be happy if I can get kisses from girls :P

Urban Legend ? Will find out soon ....

Lost My Virginity

2007-07-27T00:02:00.000-07:00

The first thing I learnt from this experience is that, NEVER say NEVER. A while back I used to criticise my classmates for blogging, I told them " Blogging is for people with no life,people with too much time on their hands and nothing better to do. I will never blog! " Well I still do agree with the first bit, I am so bored back in Malacca, I guess mainly its because everyone else is studying or working while I'm on holiday.

Like all things, I did my research on this subject (Blogging) beforehand, I've been reading some of my friends' blogs, e.g. Saran, Van, Sue, Michelle (my favourite, alot of hot juicy stuff there) and Aya. They write about their feelings and happenings, like most girls, they're very predictable; they decorate their site with flowers, colourful bubbles, pretty pictures, and they CAM WHORE! , (ok maybe I'm jealous I don't look good in pictures like they do) but yeah, lots and lots of pictures. I really don't understand, its like they know they're gonna do something fun so they bring their camera's along! They take pictures of their lunch, their snacks and even the car that brought them there! Amazing...

Here comes the interesting part, these women, (I'm not sexist, I love women, I really DO! Its just that I don't read guys blogs, not just yet) they have private blogs, I mean first, aren't blogs suppose to be private? Since you include your lunch and everything in it, wouldn't that be considered private? Now they tell me that they have private blogs, blogs where they don't share it with anyone else? Hmmm... they complain about people in their blogs and then they go blog about it some more in their private blog? I guess I never got to understanding Diaries either.

Had a bad experience with diaries, this is what happened. I was probably 11 or 12 years old, like any other parent, my mom asked me to keep a diary, she says " Sayang, its a good way of expressing your feelings, A diary is a SECRET BOOK, ONLY YOU WILL KNOW WHAT'S INSIDE." I was hook by the word SECRET BOOK, I felt like James Bond, (my hero at that time, now not so, don't really like Daniel Craig) So yeah, i did a few articles here and there, pretty boring stuff like what I ate, and how I had this theory that my maid was poisoning my food so that she could kidnap me, and you know, normal stuff like that. Then there was a day when mom scolded me for lying, well i was a really lazy kid, (still am, but that a different story) my mom used to check my books to see if I had any unfinished work, If i didn't finish my work I wasn't allowed to go out and play, so I would hide my books in the laundry and before I go to sleep put it back into my bag as my maid doesn't to laundry in the afternoon, for some reason, only God knows, mom had to do the laundry that day(she never does it). She found the book. I had like 10 pages empty, so.... yeah, i got a scolding and the usual Chinese household child torture method, the 'ROTAN'. Back to the diary thing, so I wrote in my diary about how I hated my mom, back than my vocabulary was not as good as it is now so, i only knew a few words, what I remember was that i used the words 'Lanciao, Cibai, and Fucker' the sentence construction was pretty bad so yeah, but those words stood out. Oh, I even managed to include an illustration of what i felt like doing to my mom, kicking her in the ass. Next day, mom asked me where I learnt how to use those 3 words. Showed me the page (she tore it out from the book) By the way, she still has it, she said "I wanna file it to remember the good times we had" What the hell, what happened to secret book? sheesh!

After that kind of experience would you still keep a diary? More so online... I'm not discouraging you but if you have a good reason why, I wanna know.

Lost my virginity today, this is my first post ever.

p.s : I'll try to see if I can post the art-work I did (need to ask mom for it)